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2010-06-02T17:33:00.000-07:00

On my couch last night, I contemplated my past years, the turbulence that had me going at all wrong directions. One by one, I try to get all fixed. The only thing I hope for now is to live my future with trouble free.

Thousand apologies for not being able to update frequently.
Currently, I am on some side projects.

Soon, you will know.

2010-05-18T12:02:00.000-07:00

I had a major haircut and soon to dye red.

2010-05-11T21:00:00.000-07:00

Flames to dust. Lovers to friends. Why do all good things come to an end?

2010-04-08T23:53:00.000-07:00

The major downfall had me living with trivia eversince. Waking up every morning with nothing to look forward to while plans turn obsolete. Misery is really a monster. It devours every of your dreams and let in fear to embrace you. This gets unbearable but I know I can change this.

And he, he lessens the pain.

2010-04-01T19:23:00.000-07:00

I have nothing else but my valor.

2010-03-28T04:15:00.000-07:00

Your empty promises become reiterative and rhetoric can't change my mind . I need anaesthetia for alleviation for now nothing seems to be the cure.

2010-03-23T19:51:00.000-07:00

If only I can be as jovial again as I was in the past.

2010-03-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

I got this cropped for my header.

2010-02-23T23:32:00.000-08:00

History set me so much worries for the present and future. My life used to be a lullaby flowing ever so smoothly and now, eversince 4 months back, nothing better but like a cacophony. What gets my condition even more impairable is when headache strikes everynight which resulted in me having minor insomnia with eyebags as the aftermath. I want to carry myself away from this misery but it keeps getting me down. And to be standing on the same spot for months now really frustrates me most. I lost almost everything but I am glad I still have the ones who bring joy to every second of me breathing. They are the reason I am still standing. I would be on withered grounds if it's not for them.

You can throw me any of your artifice, but I am not going to fall for it again this time. And I am referring to those who keeps pulling me down, getting in my way each time. Yes, you have witnessed my fall but you don't hold to victory forever. I might be moving at a slower pace now and you can laugh hard. But never presume the crown can be yours again.

I won't let myself stand at a losing end, now that I could feel hope is near.

2010-02-21T05:56:00.000-08:00

I had major haircut to my fringe. yes, ruined but I've already got them fixed. I spent my friday evening with the boys over at ecp and the night's finale with baby, dinner, and muffins of different flavours.

I love this boy. He's my other half and is irreplaceable.

2010-01-21T21:31:00.000-08:00

Black tea and toast sums up to a perfect brunch. Here, on my desk impatiently waiting for the evening to come, the army boy and sweet sweet surprises. With much eager, I have already put aside outfits to wear in advance. Skip jeans for the meantime and dresses with slippers as a replacement. My hair needs to get fixed, trimmed and jetblack dyed asap. Then I wouldn't have to go through the trouble of tying up my hair everytime and having my bf to wait outside my doorstep for an extra 20 minutes.

2010-01-18T21:52:00.000-08:00

Last Thursday was when I baked cakes with mom and shopped for ingredients at the last hour. With Nutella spread and alphabet candies, it is heaven I taste. And for once, I did not eat alone. I prepared some for baby and good friends. I think I am going to do this again next week.

Ive actually opened up my blog so you girls can check.

2009-12-26T06:31:00.000-08:00

I love you boyy.

2009-12-24T15:20:00.000-08:00

My pet, Spoon, died when I was on my getaway.

Pale. Sick. With major cold and constant cough that results to having ear block and eye sore. December had me doing homestaying frequently, jobless and only looking forward for weekends when I'd be able to meet my bf.

December has been flat and lifeless and my birthday week was the cure. Thank you to mom and dad for the cash to spend on new clothings, the leather phone cover, the mango Fruit cake as well as the dinner over at Tifanny's buffet. Thank you to my little sis who bought me brownies with melted white chocolate toppings. Thank you to zul for the awesome photo of me in jigsaws. And thank you to my beloved baby who gave me the best surprise ever. A box of cadbury mix, with dinner that comes along with Mango Fantasy as dessert, a birthday card and an E71. I love you. Thank you to everyone who gave me the birthday wishes.

Anyways, I was on a short holiday with baby and the boys last weekend. A joint birthday party with zul. The Saturday night with bbq, guitar hero sessions, sparkling and movie marathons. A great gathering. A memorable one.

I am blessed. I learn to appreciate with whatever I have in life now. I was once the girl who will never be happy with whatever she currently has in her hands. The girl who demands for more. I realised, it doesn't make me last.

Baby is coming over with Kfc takeaways. Couldnt get popeye's. :(

2009-12-23T15:22:00.000-08:00

I forgot to upload this up. This is already 3 weeks old.

2009-12-22T00:16:00.000-08:00

Baby got choked on a fish bone close to 1512 and I cried badly.

2009-12-16T01:17:00.000-08:00

Getting close to 4 years with a year of friendship and 2 years plus of serious relationship. Went through many ups and down, but still we're standing strong. I feel grateful for having you for you the only one who could bear with my cold treatments. You are half of me and with everything, I want to be with you forever. I feel complete now.

2009-12-14T18:52:00.000-08:00

Saturday.

The best part, I get to ride in the pengantin's car with baby as the driver. The night was something else. Had dinner with baby over at changi airport. Afterwhich Marina Barrage for supper, to taste the strong breeze.

I can't wait for the friday to come, the boy, dinner and surprises! hee.

2009-10-03T14:17:00.000-07:00

Open house.

Thanks to my parents for making this event a perfect one.

and the army boy, being mom's assistant.

Mom and dad catered half seafood half malay food.

In the buffet style. With Honeydew Sago as the dessert.

A week back. Desserts.

Mango and strawberry strudel with baby.

2009-07-01T17:09:00.000-07:00

And so I wrote another one.

Forget you by Dalesia
Summer's warmth keeps me alive

I could feel my heart beating again

A brand new day has finally arrived

Set my footsteps back to the same walkway

Im on the starting line and you're so miles away

Now is the reason i will forget about you today

Im on my way and you can never trace me

We're not on the same track, we've never been.

You put on a disguise, I played along

Deception's your game but you won't last long

This time if im lucky, I will watch you fall

And I will pretend not to hear your misery call

Im on my way and you can never trace me

We're not on the same track, we've never been.

I think that's about it.

2009-06-26T15:45:00.000-07:00

Boredom got me into this. I composed a song lyric after having constant traumatic flashbacks.
I don't want to elaborate on it but you may roughly understand me through this.

The Getaway by Dalesia

Where do i go from here when all else is empty

You walked away leaving me with no pride

And let alone myself to solve this

Today the rain will witness my journey

You've brought in darkness

Now hope becomes harder to see

But I won't let this bring me a downfall

No, I never will

What happened to everything that we have ever dreamt of?

What happened to the promises that you've made?

I will keep searching for the light

For I know you won't take me there

You've left me so many questions unanswered

You've brought in darkness

Now hope becomes harder to see

But I won't let this bring me a downfall

No, I never will

2009-06-18T14:32:00.000-07:00

My current life is like tangles on a string. These obstacles that im facing with are bitter pills to swallow. Everytime I had one solved, another one would come and hit me. got to overcome this tension. I wont let it bring me a downfall.

2009-06-13T06:16:00.000-07:00

I get anemic each night. I get drained off easily.

Nothing ever gets me down this bad.
Let this be a monument to my pain.